ERIC’S SONGBOOK

Term break is finally here.  This lazy Sunday I spent dozing off and disposing of unwanted papers in my room.  It feels really great to have more than 10 hours of sleep.  I feel rejuvenated and energized, something I never felt for more than 13 weeks.  While arranging the stuff on my desk, I came across this small booklet of poems published by The Malate Literary Folio in February 1998.  Called the anti-mush issue, such collection features love poetry written in the unconventional non-prosaic manner (i.e. prosaic poetry sounds like it is written on a Hallmark card).  And it suddenly hit me, I used to write for that publication!  Who would’ve thought that a poet would grow up to be an economist/mathematician?  My muse in this piece of poetry called Heart Kaleidoscope is now married and is now raising a child.  I adored her from a distance in my elementary and highschool days and I never had the guts and balls to say my true feelings for her thanks to my low self-esteem.  Cheesy as it may sound, my love life is as dry and crisp as a piece of whole-wheat toast.  You know how highschool was!?!  But I am proud to say that I have the makings of a contemporary Walt Whitman (one of the most influential poet/writer the US ever produced), at least once in my life.  In this poem written when I was 18 showed hints of me becoming a math teacher.  Who would incorporate terms like "geometric eccentricity" and "concave" and "triangular prism" in a poem?  If ever I get to live my rock star fantasy, I will entitle my debut album Algo-rhythm or Loga-rhythm (lol).  In terms of structure, I employed the concept of free-verse poetry (no meter, no rhyme), in Filipino, malayang taludturan.

Heart Kaleidoscope

By Frederick A. Halcon

Published: February 1998

Malate Literary Folio

Symmetry of heart figures

And other bright hues

Fill this hollow glass enclosure,

Pierce and abduct my breath.

A triangular prism

Mirroring a confetti, of your smile

And the geometric eccentricity

of your lips.

This luminous concave lens

Scrutinizing your face

In a linen like – silken lace.

My vision cleared

I realized that I am peering through

Your kaleidoscope.

The -Ber months are about to be ushered in a few days time.  I am excited that Christmas is near again!  Next term, I am bound to take Mathematical Statistics and Linear Algebra in the graduate school.  I am glad that my professor in the latter next term is the same professor I have right now in Mathematical Economics I & II.   It is good that I don’t have to adjust my studying habits to fit the teaching styles of the professor, all I have to worry about is Mathematical Statistics.  I only taught Statistics (COMSTA1) once in my entire career and it was never really my forte.   Nonetheless, I am up for the challenge. 

SEPTEMBER PARTY MUSIC:  Five good reasons to save for next month

Okay, enough career talk.  I am off to enjoy the rest of the weekend off and tomorrow, my kid brother will be celebrating his 20th birthday.  We still have no definite plans up to now as to where we will celebrate.   Speaking of turning 20, Janet Jackson’s upcoming release, 20 Y.O., will be hitting the record shelves next month on September 26 via Virgin Records.  The said record features the hit single, Call On Me, a collaboration with hip-hop artist Nelly.  This gives me another reason to look forward to the latter part of the year.  It seems like not only my kid brother is turning 20 but Janet Jackson’s career as well.  Other big releases due next month include Monica’s The Makings of Me on September 19. 

R&B superstar Monica burst into the music scene in 1995 with the hit single, Don’t Take It Personal (Just One of Dem Days).  Though such track, if one would listen closely, is really an ode to PMS, Monica’s debut album has proven that she will have a bright career ahead of her.  Among her hit singles, my favorite has always been Angel of Mine, her 2nd Billboard Hot 100 Single charttopper in 1999.  The Makings of Me currently features the hit single Everytime The Beat Drop with Dem Franchise Boyz. 

Justin Timberlake of *NSync fame is up against the demons of the sophomore slump or jinx.  He is bound to release his 2nd solo album on September 12.  Bluntly titled Futuresex/Lovesounds, such opus will try to live up to the success of 2002’s Justified.  At present, his latest single called Sexyback is slowly climbing the Billboard Hot 100 Singles chart despite its catchy beat and melody.  Am I the only one who finds his falsetto irritating?!?  It sounds like someone kicked him in the balls for Christsake! 

It seems like everyone is fighting off the sophomore jinx.  Beyoncé and Jay-Z performed dismally on the charts with their single Deja Vu, the first hit to be culled from the ex-Destiny’s Child member’s latest set called B’Day which will be released on Knowles birthday itself, September 5 via Columbia Records.  The approach to Deja Vu is very formulaic, patterned after the success of 2003’s Crazy In Love thus leaving less room for improvement and creativity.  Nonetheless, I am willing to give this album a try. 

No one sticks in a band forever.  Someone will always attempt to pursue a solo career sooner or later.  The Black Eyed Peas’ only rose among the thorns, Fergie, is slated to release her solo album called The Dutchess on September 19.  The champ of the Billboard Hot 100 Singles chart for two weeks now, Fergie reached newer heights with the track called London Bridge.  As a solo artist, she was able to generate a #1 hit single, something that The Black Eyed Peas, as a group, never achieved. 

And of course, I need to claim my copy of John Mayer’s latest CD called Continuum on September 11.  The Philippines will be ahead by one day of the US in its release.

The stress continuum stretches indefinitely.  I’m glad that the 1st term is almost over but the dread of checking 122 QUATECH exams looms ahead across the horizon.  On top of these, course card day has always been stressful and the Focus Group Discussion (FGD) on the PEARL2/CIDA project I have immersed myself into eats most of my spare time to think and re-think my priorities.  I wish I could find enough time just to unwind without squeezing relaxation in my busy schedule.  Just how do you draw the line between eustress (good stress) and distress (bad stress)? 

Of the few hours I have to rest after coming home from work, I tried to channel surf and being an avid fan of music videos (at least once in my life), my random dialing of the remote landed on MTV (or was it Channel V).  Honestly, I prefer the latter to the former.  The former’s programming has deteriorated throughout the years.  And to my utter dismay, such music channel was playing Jessica Simpson’s nakngtokwa video, A Public Affair.  Forgive my bluntness, but after being stuck in a 3 or 4-minute skating limbo, I think she nearly fried half of my brain cells dead.  I needed to check if I can still do the simplex method as well as differentiation and integration after seeing that brainless video.  Come next term and I can’t teach COMCALC and/or QUATECH, I’m gonna file for damages.  Sus ginoo talaga!  No wonder some people call the TV, the idiot box (cause you will feel like one after watching)!  Some shows are really mentally decapitating and absurdly shallow. 

September 11, 2006 marks the release of John Mayer’s new album called Continuum (finally some music that makes sense).  Yesterday, I reserved a copy in Tower Records Makati.  I get to keep a poster, a shirt, and a chance to win an electric guitar!  Guess I get to live my rock star fantasy now, eh?  Mayer’s new album features the hit single, Waiting on the World to Change, a title so fitting in my life.  Though I consider myself more of a realist, there are certain things in this world that I would like to change no matter how impossible and unyielding they may seem (or even are).  My personal thought on changing the world:  I guess, I can’t change the world but I can change myself and sooner or later I can change the way I see the world.    I also checked my calendar and realized that September 11 is the 1st day of the 2nd term and also the 5th year anniversary of the 9/11 attacks.  I’m keeping my fingers crossed that the 2nd term will go more smoothly and less stressful than the first. 

Waiting on the World to Change - John Mayer

Me and all my friends
We’re all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing
There’s no way we ever could
Now we see everything is going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don’t have the means
To rise above and beat it

So we keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
Know we keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting (waiting)
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change
Waiting on the world to change.

In my recent posts, I paid an unhealthy tribute to one of the most rotten years of my life.  Now, if someone would even dare ask me, if ever there’s a (near) perfect year I would like to relive, the answer is YES.  Memories of 2001 never fails to cheer me up.  It was near perfect from start to finish.  I loved it and I just can’t let go of it.  The succeeding paragraphs would be my tales of the bits, bites and pieces of that year.  Just like a glass of Cali Shandy, it is light and bubbly. 

January 2001

This month marked the start of my last term in DLSU as a student.  After a horrendous OJT experience, I was beginning to seriously toy with the idea of becoming a teacher.  Loaded with a 21-unit final term academic load, I mustered all my concentration in earning that Honorable Mention medal.  All my brain cells (if only they were to be treated as individuals) experienced an adrenaline rush.  Jennifer Lopez releases her sophomore album, J.Lo, and starred in The Wedding Planner.  Both hit #1 in The Billboard 200 and in the U.S. Box Office respectively.  The funky Love Don’t Cost A Thing is in heavy rotation in MTV.  The 6th Day and Meet The Parents were the first international releases that opened in theatres in the 1st working week of January. Mel Gibson and Helen Hunt’s What Women Want hits the silverscreen as well.  Pearl shakes become a staple in the diet of DLSU students.  This month marked a good start of a great year!  JPRIZAL requirement: go to EDSA II and participate in the ouster of Joseph Estrada.  When will political turmoil ever cease to pester the Philippines?

February 2001

I eagerly anticipated the opening of Hannibal in the theatres in February.  The sequel to The Silence of the Lambs pretty much lived to my expectations.  Julianne Moore proved to be a very versatile actress while Sir Anthony Hopkins was surprisingly and eerily freaky.   Shaggy’s collaboration with Ricardo "Rikrok" Ducent, It Wasn’t Me rotated heavily in my cassette player.  Robinson’s Place Manila became a regular hangout place for me every Wednesday mornings (the same day cinemas switch movies) since my first class (RELSFOR) starts at 2:30 p.m.  OutKast’s Miss Jackson hits #1 in the Billboard Hot 100 chart.  Ricky Martin and Christina Aguilera’s Nobody Wants To Be Lonely sizzles in the airwaves.  As for me, I kept myself busy preparing multiple copies of my resume for job applications.  In this month, I submitted a copy to my alma mater, De La Salle Zobel, hoping to become a high school teacher.

March 2001

Sandra Bullock scores a box-office hit with Miss Congeniality as it parodies supposedly dimwit beauty pageants.  I’d rather hear a 6th grader mouth world peace than those lifeless piece of bones a.k.a. models!  Crazy Town’s Butterfly kept my cassette player turning.  I loved that catchy intro.  For the first time all by myself, I took the liberty to go to a Midnight Madness Sale in Glorietta that mid-March.  I bought a copy of Lenny Kravitz’s Greatest Hits thanks to the rock ballad Again.  I had a blind date with a friend of mine in Glorietta and she took me to Rockwell with plans of catching Chocolat, we ended up seeing a semi-erotic sadomasochistic film called DeSade (what a waste of money).  Julia Stiles’ hit big in the silverscreen with Save The Last Dance.  Gladiator earns the Best Picture plum in the Academy Awards.  Julia Roberts nails it with her role as Erin Brockovich.  My application to the Business Management Department, Management of Financial Institutions, Marketing Department and Economics Department were trashed.  I was exasperated to get a teaching job.  Little did I know that three months later, I would be granted a backdoor entry to teaching.  Thanks to the Mathematics Department!  When no one else wanted my services, they were there!

April 2001

Janet Jackson’s All For You (album and single) emerged as the triumphant dominator in the Billboard charts.  I bought a copy of the album the morning before I gave a teaching demo of Inverse Functions in the Mathematics Department, in which I thought I failed but I guess my high Math grades in college helped a lot in getting the job.  I even caught a screening of Steven Seagal’s Exit Wounds to soothe my nerves.  My mom spent weeks in the home of the owner of Goldilocks hoping to get a job in the States as a manager of one their branches.  I swore to myself that if ever I get a highpaying job my mom won’t even run the risk of leaving us in pursuit of a better quality of life (which I think I did).  I was so sad that I had to spend my 22nd birthday without her.   I spent my birthday with relatives eating in Don Henrico’s for lunch, and in the evening, I went to Glorietta to meet my friends.  Auntie Bot and Malou stayed with us for weeks to keep my brother and I company.  DLSZ called me up for an interview (I guess the job is in the bag).  Course card day!  My final grades are as follows:

• JPRIZAL = 3.0
• RELSFOR = 4.0
• STRATEM = 4.0
• INTERBU = 4.0
• LITERA2 = 4.0
• CBEARTS = 4.0
• SALETAX = 1.5 (wtf?!? this killed my chances of getting into the 1st Honor’s Dean’s List.  I despise liars, I mean lawyers)
• GPA = 3.500
• CGPA = 3.069 (but I still qualified for the Honorable Mention award! For the first time in my life, I felt smart!

A Zagu stall opened in our village.  A pearl shake made a perfect after dinner dessert.  Malou and I watched the bittersweet drama, Sweet November, in SM Southmall.  Destiny’s Child’s Survivor was released in the Philippines on my mom’s 53rd birthday, April 26.  Mama, Dondon, Auntie Bot and I celebrated in Pizza Hut.  By the way, I love McDonald’s Cotton Candy McFlurry!  I wonder if they will ever bring that flavor back?!?

May 2001

Labor Day was marred by Edsa III.  The Mummy Returns hit the big screen.  I really love Rachel Weisz.  I finally got the job in De La Salle Zobel as a high school teacher and underwent a week-long orientation and seminar.  It was nice to visit one’s alma mater and reminisce.  I can’t believe that I’m a teacher already!  In addition to that, it felt relaxing to catch a movie in the newly renovated Alabang Town Center cinemas.  Watching a film there feels like watching it in the comfort of your own living room.  I applied as an insurance agent of Nippon Life Insurance in Greenhills as an alternative career if my plans of a teacher won’t push through.  Ashley Judd stars in the cheesy romantic comedy Someone Like You. I kept myself on my toes as I obtain my SSS, Community Tax Certificate, and other pertinent pre-employment papers.  I just wanted to say to all those goddamn critics of mine in the corporate world during my OJT days, "I am no bum!".  It took me less than a month to find a job so eat my dust.  I’ll never forget those words that mean sales rep fatso said to me as an intern, "Welcome to the world of the unemployed".  Well, I have this to say, " Yuck Fou!" and "My body mass index is better than yours".  Oh by the way, I juggled two jobs: as high school teacher and as a college professor, all at the age of 22.  Make that three:  I am an active tutor too.  Sometimes the harshest of all critics powers you to move on and show them what you are made of.  Miss Universe mania:  Puerto Rico’s Denise Quinones bags the title in her own turf.  She actually looks a lot like Rachel Weisz.  This woman has it all.  I think I’m in love…

June 2001

Pearl Harbor invades Manila.  Kate Beckinsale was such a sight for sore eyes.  I saw the movie twice!  The film’s soundtrack generated There You’ll Be as another Top 40 hit for country singer Faith Hill.  June 5, 2001 (Tuesday) marked the opening of SY2001-02.  I am blessed to initially teach MATH111 to Physics majors and COMATH1 to Accounting majors.  At that time, hindi pa ako marunong magturo (lol, but I guess a 4.0075 out of 5.000 ITEO rating was good enough).  My graduation fell on the day after my first payday.  I was the only one in our block who sported two medals in the rites!  My hardwork paid off!  Musicwise, the Moulin Rouge! soundtrack was totally off the chain!  The entire family celebrated my graduation in Makati and had a sumptuous New Orleans dinner in Friday’s Makati.  I gave my mom a chunk of my salary and I bought my own wristwatch and electric fan.  I am full-pledged self-liquidating individual!  I was given my own advisory class!  I am teaching Algebra and Economics for the first time! Lesson plan making was an arduous task for me.

July 2001

I developed that habit of watching last full shows in ATC.  Mama, Auntie Bot and I caught a screening of Evolution while my new best friend, Lina, watched Jurassic Park III.  My first clubbing experience with my co-faculty members also materialized:  never let them know you’re into singing.  Moral lesson from the experience:  Jennifer Lopez’s Let’s Get Loud and I do not mix.  My CD player just can’t stop playing *NSync’s Celebrity CD.  The hit single, Pop, is just too catchy for my eardrums.  My obsession of waiting for the record bar staff to unload the CDs on their first day of release and impulsively buying multiple copies has reached newer heights (lol).  Missy Elliott’s Get Your Freak On was so catchy I just can’t get it out of my head–talk about a Last Song Syndrome.  Nutrition month in school: my class was tasked to bring healthy home-cooked food for the salu-salo. 

August 2001

Celebrating Linggo ng Wika in school around August has always been an age-old tradition.  Usher’s U Remind Me sets the charts on fire.  His album 8701 was released in the Philippines around late August.  Mariah Carey suffers a breakdown and Glitter made history as one of the worst films of all time (lol)!  The debut single from the soundtrack, Loverboy, is sold for 99 cents a piece just to help it get to #1 but was prevented by Beyonce and her camp with Bootylicious which heavily sampled a song by Stevie Nicks of Fleetwood Mac.  A newcomer with the name of Alicia Keys scores her first U.S. #1 with the ballad Fallin’.  Her critically-acclaimed debut album Songs in A Minor became one of the staples in my CD player.  At work, one of the Herculean tasks I had to overcome was preparing my first ever concoction of the Quarterly Examinations. 

September 2001

America’s Sweethearts, a romantic comedy starring Julia Roberts, Billy Crystal, John Cusack and Catherine Zeta-Jones, hits the big screen locally.  Because of this film, the Corrs’ ballad, All The Love In The World, became a radio hit.  Final examinations in COMATH1 and MATH111 were slated on September 5.  I was so excited to check my first batch of finals, compute the final grades and sign course cards.  It was so surreal.  A few months ago I was receiving grades and now I’m making them (but now, I dread course card days cause I get hounded by my students and the tedious task drains all my energy).  September 11 marked a dark day in American history with the terrorists attacks.  I remember waking up and not believing what I am seeing on TV.  Jennifer Lopez teams up with JaRule for the Murder Remix of I’m Real thus earning her 2nd #1 Billboard charttopper. 

October 2001

Prior to Halloween weekend, faculty members in DLSZ had its annual Sportsfest.  I joined the relay games out of the spirit of camarederie and fun.  All newbies agreed to catch a movie after in ATC.  We ended up watching Denzel Washington and Ethan Hawke in Training Day.  Before that we had dinner in Pancake House.  Little did we know that Washington will be earning his 2nd Oscar in his role as a corrupt cop.  Lina, Mecky and I went clubbing after the movie.  It is nice to be young, I was brimming with so much energy at that time and I wonder where it all went in the past 5 years?  At that time, I am already processing my papers for the Master in Applied Economics program for the next year.  I was able to obtain two recommendation letters that day of the Sportsfest and things are really going my way.  The repackaged J.Lo album which features the remix of I’m Real finally hit Philippine shores that afternoon.

November 2001

I love this month.  The November breeze is so crisp and together with the paper bills I received as my 13th month pay (lol)!  I bought my family a VCD player with my hard-earned money.  I remember watching the last full show of Serendipity with Lina in ATC after work.  I’m not really into mushy stuff but this movie really changed the way I see romantic comedies.  Before the movie, I had my tastebuds baptized with some delectable desserts from Cheesecake, etc.  Kate Beckinsale, again, is more than just a pretty face.  I like the way they explored the idea of waiting for the right one in your life.  Furthermore, the soundtrack album blew me away.  I loved Annie Lennox’s Waiting In Vain and Evan and Jaron’s The Distance.  Michael Jackson tries to revive his career with his new studio album called Invincible.  Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone finally opens in Manila. Dondon, Mama and I caught a last full show in Festival Mall while I was so nervous as to how my entrance exam in graduate school will be the following morning.  My fancy for reading Harry Potter novels was christened in this month.  Thanks to my friend Lina who prodded me to jumpstart the habit.  Lina even introduced me to Marsha, her college best friend, and we caught a screening of Nicolas Cage and Penelope Cruz in Captain Correlli’s Mandolin in the old Greenbelt.  My advisory class also went to a field trip in this month as we travelled down south to Cavite and to the Palace in the Sky in Tagaytay.  I miss my first batch of students so much that I never found any other class who are as supportive, as caring, as cooperative and as thoughtful as they were.  Though I was down with a bad case of a cold on that day, they were gracious enough to understand my poor condition.  May God bless them in all their endeavors!   Mary J. Blige’s Family Affair booms the bass in my room!  Never have I heard an R&B track sound so smooth yet so hot!  Dr. Dre really got the groove right together with the uplifting message of no more drama in your life.  How I wish I could say this to all the years that I will be living. 

December 2001

My endless passion for VCDs was born on this month.  I became one of the loyal customers of the now defunct Astrovision in ATC.  My best friend, Paul, invited me together with his college buddies to his birthday bash in Fisherman’s Wharf in Rockwell.  His guest of honor?  Zorayda Ruth Andam, Binibining Pilipinas-Universe 2001.  Her sister happened to be the officemate of Paul’s mom!  I was so star-struck, I can’t even speak a word!  She is so gorgeous!  Now, she is a full-pledged lawyer, a proud product of the UP School of Law.  December also made me feel great as I bought gifts for family and friends!  It is nice to be the breadwinner and provider!  I feel accomplished and blessed!  Thank you Lord.  I even gave my former teachers in DLSZ some presents from Marks & Spencer as a sign of gratitude.  I even took my kid brother and my mom Christmas shopping in Makati.  I told them, turo lang kayo, I’ll pay!  In terms of music, Mariah Carey’s Greatest Hits album was in heavy rotation in my CD player and was released on the 8th of December sealing her days with Columbia Records.  Janet Jackson made a mediocre showing on the charts with the 3rd and last single from All For You called Son of A Gun (I Betcha Think This Song Is About You) which features P. Diddy and Missy Elliott.  On Christmas Day, Lina and Marsha tugged me along to catch a movie showing in the MMFF (you’ll never make me watch a Tagalog movie, I swear, the Philippine movie industry has no potential market in me).  Of all movies, we ended up watching the awful Tatarin (na walang ka-kwenta-kwenta).  Nonetheless, we had a sumptuous lunch in California Pizza Kitchen in Glorietta, with Chavit Singson and his bodyguards adjacent to our table.  I remember that we had to eat fast and risk indigestion before anything happens (lol).  We were the only dining customers at the ground floor that day and we didn’t want to be headliners and end up in boxes before New Year’s Day (lol).  Moreover, we would rather die choking on those spring rolls than get mugged by a politician’s bodyguards (lol)!

How I wish these carefree days would come back!  A near perfect year as I say!

After the demise of my father, I learned how to empathize more sincerely with others.  I know see things in a different perspective and to put myself in another person’s shoes.  With a painful experience, I gained a whole new layer of wisdom.  There are days when I feel so sad but what keeps me going is to keep busy all the time.  Instead of wallowing in my own misery, I try to appreciate and cherish the things I have.  I peer outside the window of the bus and I see people struggle to make a living.  I see people beg for food.  Every morning, on my way to work, I see weary faces.  In the end, life goes on for them despite the hardships one has to go through.  I always believed that everyone is fighting a battle.  So why make life harder than it is?  One personal philosophy I have is to be kind and helpful to anyone in need.  Sometimes, a simple act of kindness or thoughtfulness goes a long way.  Sadly, based on my own experience, people tend to abuse that. 

I do find simple joys in life and not everything has to be grand-a vacant weekend, a stroll in the mall, a good cup of hot chocolate, a page-propelling (non-Mathematics) book, a soulful movie, a chartbusting CD, and enough time to get a decent shut-eye.  Despite the rain last Sunday, my cousins and I were successful enough with our trek to Makati.  This Sunday, I’m off to a movie marathon with Russell Crowe and Renee Zellweger in Cinderella Man.  In addition to that, I’m also scheduled to catch Jim Caviezel, Richard Harris and Guy Pearce in The Count of Monte Cristo.  Recently, I caught Jim Carrey and Kate Winslet’s film Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind for a mere P99.  Though the plot was quite difficult to rationalize given its varying time elements, I liked the movie since it plays with the idea of letting go of memories one holds so preciously.  Kudos to VCDs on sale!  On a serious note, I have a take-home midterm exam in ECO512D due on Tuesday.  My axons (brain cells) are nearly fried since I can’t figure 3 problems out of 7 quite right as of the moment.  I think that the exam is deliberately made to be cumbersome. 

The end of the 1st term draws closer.  I need enough energy to correct 122 final exams compute around 140 final grades.  I just can’t wait for the term break to rest and have some uninterrupted fun.  It is a good thing that I wake up lately no longer feeling like I’m back to my 15 year-old self.  I guess the hormonal storm is over (lol).

This next song never fails to put a smile on my face since the title perfectly describes me as a person.  I first heard this one when I was around 11 years old in the opening credits of Pretty Woman.  From that point on, I always dreamed of being as rich as Richard Gere’s character.  I also dreamed of driving a limousine in downtown Los Angeles and go "stargazing".  Actually, it started my obsession with the West Coast and I made it a point to watch Beverly Hills 90210 regularly (just love the 90s).  Jennie Garth used to be so beautiful, innocent-looking and not your typical dumb blonde.  It is so nice to be a kid, life so was simple then and I used to think that life is so easy and kind. 

King of Wishful Thinking - Go West

I don’t need to fall at your feet
Just ’cause you cut me to the bone
And I won’t miss the way that you kiss me
We were never carved in stone
If I don’t listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself..

I’ll get over you.. I know I will
I’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
’cause I’m the king of wishful thinking
I’m the king of wishful thinking
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
But I won’t shed a tear for you
I’ll be the king of wishful thinking
I’ll get over you..
I’ll pretend my heart’s still beating
’cause I’ve got no more tears for you
I’m the king of wishful thinking..
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
’cause I’m the king of wishful thinking